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Something that just clicked from my own experience. I was super enthusiastic about the matters of my south node even before i know about astrology. Not going much into details but lets just say i have been chasing an illusion. Recently I stumbled upon this thread in this forum - https://schoolofevolutionaryastrology.com/forum/index.php/topic,1044.0.html. I am pretty sure i was disillusioned. It definitely feel bitter. The funny thing is that after learning about this neptunian disillusionment thing, I don't feel so interested in my south node anymore. Now that I think about it, it feels rather interesting that the only reason I worked on my south node is because I was super invested in this psychic illusion(so much that it was one of the primary reason to even live. no exaggeration). But sadly it had no base in reality. Now that I know its not real, the matters of my south node doesn't feel appealing anymore(lessons learned?). Its so crazy how stuff works.