Skipped Steps

[Rad]

All,

Kristin will be updating us on Shaw as she has just had a consultation with him and his mother. I will wait to post the summary of his skipped steps until she shares this update.

God Bless, Rad

[Kristin]

Hello again,

I wanted to share with you all that I did a reading for Shaw and his mom this past weekend, and he was just so mature and present for a twelve year old boy. You can see this with his nodal axis, as well as Saturn forming a balsalmic conjunction to his Mars.  

This is a short summary of our time together. I had 3 points I wanted to cover, simple teachings that would help Shaw objectify his life and his feelings so he can grow beyond this place he has continued to get stuck. Neptune has moved beyond the square so it is waning as Upasika shared in his additional post, and I did witness some visible awareness in himself, and the desire to heal and grow.

I started the reading this way, sharing with him that he chose this life, this family, and that his Soul even knew his sister was coming through at some point. That what he is experiencing right now are dynamics that did not play out so well in the the past, that it is an opportunity to get it right this time. All Souls pick up where they left off and ALL SOULS ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR THE REALITY THEY CREATE.

God is not picking on you by giving you this sister who pushes your buttons, that you are meant to grow through this feeling of turmoil, we cannot skip steps. Its like being given a second chance. I felt him exhale long and slow. I could feel that he understood. He then said, "I am trying harder to be nice. "

I was careful not to use the word feeling like a victim when helping him understand his tripping points, Neptune square the Nodes, because I was concerned he might check out. I felt it was too strong a word in that time and space. But I stressed the fact that all Souls always create what they need to grow and evolve, that we are all broken and we all have things we are working through, not just him.

When considering his Pluto/Moon conjunction, the Moon being in the 6th, asking him this simple question, "If you could wake up tomorrow and your life would be perfect, what would it look like? What would you change if you could?" I was half expecting him to say that he would be an only child, that his sister would have never been born.

But he said these words, "No mistakes."  

1. No One is Perfect

I could feel those words carry a reverberation from his past knowing he has pushed things too far with Mars balsamic to Saturn in Cancer in the 12th opposing the Moon in the 6th. He has shared with his mother that if his sister wasn't around, he would never get in trouble.

But this also stems from having parents in other lives whose love was conditional, who only loved him when his performance was perfect or when he lived up to their expectation of perfection, which never happened, because who could ever be perfect? Or perhaps if he made no mistakes, then the sister would never become the center of attention when she shined more than he did. There was deep pain and grief in his eyes.

I spent some time talking about the fact that all Souls are in a state of becoming, that no one is perfect, nor will we ever be. That not even God is perfect. His eyes grew big and round and he smiled. I asked him this simple JWG question. How can a perfect something create something imperfect? It isn't possible. That we are all God expressing itself out here in the world and we all make mistakes. It is also about forgiving our past and doing our best in the moment, to make new choices when those old ugly angry feelings arise. At the end of the day, all any Soul can ever do is their best, and in God's eyes that will always be more than enough.

With his Moon in the 6th, the ruler of his Saturn, Mars, in Cancer, he will always be his own worst critic and enemy. Also that this mom in this life, loves him unconditionally and wants nothing more than for him to love himself this way too.

I asked him what makes him happy. I just loved his response.
He said, "My dog."

I followed with, "What is it about your dog that makes you happy?"
Shaw said, "she is always happy, happy to see me, and she loves pets and cuddles."

I then said, "And she loves you no matter what,right? She does not care if you make mistakes, she loves you just as you are."

Shaw replied, "Yes, no matter what."

Shaw has a Moon in Sagittarius in the 6th, an animal lover at heart without question. Also because of his own nature, the strong 12th house, his instant recognition of an animal's innocence and pure emotion, who wants nothing more than to love and be loved.

SO after we spoke for a while about this, I asked him what he learned from what has been shared so far? He said

"No one is perfect."

2. Everyone Else's reality is equal to His Own

I stressed the importance of respecting each other's natures, understanding that every Soul is different, and has different needs in any given moment. Also how good it feels when we can offer that love and respect to others knowing it is what they need, and when we do this, they will naturally want to extend this love and respect in return.

I said there is a cosmic law that says 'what you put out comes back', or 'every action has an opposite reaction', and he said, "Karma."? I said, "Bingo." That it is a very simple law to understand, how you can witness it before you eyes while it is happening at times. However, if a choice is made in this moment to hurt another, it may not come back in the next moment with the other person striking back, it could happen the next day and it could come back to bite you from someone you really love or care about. Everything comes back around.

He shared that things have been better lately that he has been showing his sister more love and affection and that it made him feel really good because he knew it made her feel good. I shared too that when he shows his sister love, it's like the Sun coming out inside of her. That he knows this for himself when someone is showing him this kind of love. He agreed ~ they both have Pluto in the 5th.

3. "Dance Like No One is Watching."

Life is an inside out process and the more any Soul connects within itself, in Shaw's case, finding the music within, or connecting to God in his own natural way, the more that life outside himself will naturally fall into place.

I shared the power of being able to access that place of inner joy while dancing or performing whether someone is watching or not, whether there is a packed house or nothing but empty seats. It's about connecting to something larger than himself, and that place within, the music within for Shaw equals "true freedom".  

That this journey is about creating an inner space of security, confidence and self love regardless of what is happening on the outside, that his state of being becomes not dependent on whether or not something is watching or applauding, or what someone else thinks about him,  but a result of the world he has created within himself.

Resolutions  - It's time for a Change!

Transting Uranus in Aries, the ruler of his Neptune in Aquarius in the 7th, his skipped step, is conjunct his natal Mercury in Aries in the 10th house. I shared that he is experiencing a very powerful and rare 84 year energetic trend where he can experience a freeing breakthrough relative to his sister,  that he can change the way he sees/understands things, objectifying himself and his actions, learning the art of response versus reaction, the choice that will lead to an outcome that he would far prefer ie not getting 'in trouble'.

The transiting South Node in Pisces his conjunct his natal Uranus in the 8th house, energizing Soul change and a breaking free from the trauma of the past. Making new choices in the face of old feelings. So when he gets triggered by his sister, he stops in that moment when he feels the charge, he removes himself, and thinks about the best way to move forward so the same skip in the record does not keep happening.

Shaw said,
" SO you mean I can change?"
and I said, "Yep, right now. You can change for the better. And the fact that you are sitting here at the age of 12, says one heck of a lot about you and about your mom ~ bravo!"

I reminded him, "You are in charge of your choices and your actions in any moment, and these choices will dictate how it all goes, whether you fuel love or whether you fuel the anger." Sharing too this quote from Yogananda, that "Anger blots out God."  I reminded him that it is natural to feel anger when you have been pushed too far, but its what you do with that anger that has caused you tremendous pain and remorse. If you feed that anger especially when it is directed at another to harm them, that this anger will eclipse anything good. In this instance, nobody wins. You have the power to improve your life in a blink and in any given moment. The change is up to you.

I asked him too what he would change in his life is he could. He said, " More positivity." Transiting Jupiter is in his 4th house now in Libra, an wonderful time to elevate his outlook and to offer immediate results of how his positive emotion can improve his family environment, but it will require giving up old patterns and reactions, and understanding that it is up to him to clear the old negative space, emotions such as anger and jealousy, in order to make room for something that benefits everyone. So I spoke to this trend, that Jupiter will ask him to clear some negative space, anger is like a virus in a computer, it can mess with your whole life. So yes, it is a perfect time for some positive change, but it is up to you to make it happen."

I shared in close
"The more you grow on the Inside, the more your LIGHT shines. People will naturally be drawn to your light. But to grow on the inside because it makes you stronger within, and to let that light shine whether or not someone  is watching and whether anyone notices or not.


For Shaw

Two Wolves
A Cherokee Legend

An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. "A fight is going on inside me," he said to the boy.

"It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One is evil - he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, jealousy arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego." He continued, "The other is good - he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The same fight is going on inside you - and inside every other person, too."

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, "Which wolf will win?"

The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

[Bhaskara]

Hi Kristin Rad and Everyone,

Kristin thank you for sharing your session with Shaw. Just so beautiful and inspirational that at his young age of only 12 that he is seeing and starting to understand these things about himself as well as his desire to transform the negative emotions that have previously held him in a place of stagnation and despair.

Heather

[Rad]

All,

So here is a summary of the core skipped steps for Shaw.

To accept the responsibility of his own actions, instead of feeling victimized by the circumstances he has created. Within this a major intention, and the core of resolving his skipped steps, IS LEARNING OVER AND OVER THAT OTHER PEOPLES REALITIES, NEEDS, ARE EQUAL TO HIS OWN. In this way he will then learn to see others for who they actually are versus his subjective projections upon them that server to trigger all of his old and existing psychological reactions to them. In this way, he will then learn how to LISTEN TO OTHERS in such a way as to actually understand them for who they are, and, in this way, give to others what they actually need versus what he thinks they need from within the prism of his own subjective reality. In these way he will then utterly metamorphose his inner relationship to himself, relate to himself in these new ways. And, in these ways, he will evolve into new ways to feel secure within himself: the 4th House resolution Node.

The Mars/Saturn in Cancer in the 12th directly correlates with the root/ essence of the skipped steps relative to the N.Node in the 10th that also has that Mercury in Aries within it: ruled by that Mars/Saturn conjunction. This is all about accepting the responsibility in his own actions versus feeling victimized by that which is Soul has created. And that feeling victimized of course then extends into the projections upon just about anyone including his family members. There is a great deal in all of these symbols that directly correlate to the specifics of any given life, the circumstances of what he has created in the past coming into the current life. Yet, right now, it is important to try to understand the core evolutionary and karmic dynamics, the roots of it all,  more than what those specific circumstances may or may not have been.

Within this to understand the nature of his expectations that are projected upon others, and well as they are projected upon himself. In other lives the nature of these expectations has caused him to, at times, to terminate relationships with others when those expectations were not met, caused him to project negative judgments on others that were very hurtful, and expectations upon himself that have caused him to stop doing something that he really wanted to do, or a way to be. Skipped steps have occurred when he stoped himself from doing something he wanted to do, or a way of being. They have also occurred by way of other people whom he projected expectations that lead to the termination of relationships with those others.

Other skipped steps include recreating key relationships with family members, intimate others, certain friends from past lives, and relationships that were created as a function of his professional lives. They also include learning how to receive the help of others without projecting ulterior motives upon them when in fact no such motives exist. They include integrating his inner male and female into an androgenous whole that also manifests in his choices for intimate others: others who are also androgenous by nature. Thus,the roles within his intimate relationships become natural versus conditioned: the rigid roles of male and female. Within this then the skipped step lesson wherein the roles of each are equal, their needs are equal, and their individual lives together are equal: not whose is most important.

He also has intense emotional and sexual issues and dynamics from other lifetimes that we have not yet discussed. The link to these issues and skipped steps correlate to repeating key relationships with others in prior lives, including family members, in which these dynamics and issues took place.

If you have any questions please ask.

God Bless, Rad

[Bhaskara]

Hi Everyone,

Thank you Rad for the summary of Shaw's skipped steps. I have taken in everything that everyone has shared that applies to Shaw's chart and I have sat with his chart with all that in mind and hopefully in time I will start to osmose the archetypes and teachings.

Thank you so much for these opportunities to learn,

Heather

[marty]

Shaw's chart

   I have not followed this thread as closely as I'd like, and have only read some of the most recent comments, but I get such a strong sense of this young man that I had to ask if there's any credibility to what I see?

   This is one of the most heavily traumatized young persons' charts that I've ever seen. It looks to me that he is simply trying to survive, this lifetime. I flashed on a past life in which conditions were bleak and the environment was severe, harsh and cold. It seemed like native people trying to live off the land like the wild creatures (Pluto moon in Sagittarius), and at times, fighting for survival. But these very same conditions and creatures will become his greatest teachers if he can overcome internal fear, judgment, and self-imposed guilt.

   I perceive past-life conditions in which a younger sibling was born, everyone could not be fed / protected, and it eventually caused the demise of both the younger infant and her mother and father, in the process. I see "survivor guilt" in the Pluto moon 5th to 6th house signature, and someone who is drawing upon that experience this lifetime, in attempts to face and heal the trauma.

   I think that he might be (current life) petrified that the presence of his sister would cause the weakening of his parents, and he blames himself for feelings of resentment toward her.

   I see guilt at being born, at having a loving family, guilt of fearing the arrival of a sibling, and guilt of feeling the need to be the center of attention, just in order to survive.

   Leo rules the 2nd house and its' ruler is in Taurus in the 11th.  Taurus is the nature of all life forms to survive. It looks to me that he has returned to the house of unresolved trauma to "˜face the music' and try to heal the trauma. His sun is inconjunct the Pluto moon, causing him to freeze at the prospect of past-life memory work. The need for comfort, security and hiding would be so overwhelming it would nearly paralyze him.

   The Pluto polarity point is certainly a saving grace - the opportunity to renew and liberate the mind by stepping out of his comfort zone and letting go of his parents' hands, however temporarily.

   Neptune in Aquarius in the 7th would require the reassurance and unconditional love of the S.N. in Scorpio, 4th house in order to liberate from the misplaced fear and guilt that he projects on others.

   I see the theme of the need for self love, self actualization and self forgiveness (whether it is founded or not) repeating with Leo on the 2nd house cusp - the desire to know himself as beautiful, worthy and complete in the eyes of Father/Mother God, and the Pluto moon signature in the 5th and 6th - his souls' yearning to move beyond survivors' guilt and reclaim the right to be here, now.

   It seems that his natal Pluto, retrograde, separating from his moon, only amplifies the feelings of despair, isolation and abandonment that he must have experienced in an earlier life, but he is learning not to feel guilty for wanting to live, even though he may have witnessed the death of his loved ones.

   Uranus in Pisces in the 8th house of death, rebirth and metamorphosis is the ruler of Neptune and such a strong psychic wound. I think he will come to see the natural order of things, and the beauty and re-creation in nature in this lifetime, that will replace his fear of the natural world and the cycle of death and rebirth. It opposes Jupiter in Virgo in the 2nd and he will learn not to judge himself so harshly and renew his mind. No one deserves to suffer.

   With Neptune on its' own S.N., I feel that Shaw will be able to work with the realms of animals, the natural world, and music in order to align the consciousness of others with the mysteries of creation that are self evident (via that Sagittarius moon) and to, ultimately, not fear the natural processes or changes of lifes' renewals, but instead, to revel in the beauty of the moment. He has quite a brave and prominent Mercury placement for doing so - what a bright light!

   Lastly, the Venus / Mars / Saturn stellium in Gemini / Cancer looks pretty tough, but if he can wade into those emotional waters once more, and venture loving those closest to him again (especially his sister) he will ultimately be agreeing to step into the shoes that his father once wore when he had to make impossible decisions, and realize that a parents' love always forgives, and always outlives death. I wanna' see this kid fly!

   I realize I've skimmed some of the previous material, but this was so strong, I had to post it. I think all of your comments are amazing and thank you for this opportunity to share.

[dollydaydream]

Kristin and Rad, thank you so much.  I am humbled by the opportunity to learn such rare and special teachings through your generosity of Spirit.  Kristin for sharing elements of your counselling session, the creativity and sensitivity of your approach.  Rad for the straightforward, underlying dynamics.  Having these two descriptions, along with everyone else's comments on this MB, is immensely helpful when looking into the symbols of the chart.  Kristin, thanks also to your clients for their permission to look at their charts.

Regarding "Dance Like No One is Watching", it reminds me of one of my most favorite movies called "Billy Elliott".  In a patriarchal, northern-english mining town where boys are not supposed to dance, Billy Elliott joins a ballet class and learns to do just that.  He keeps it a secret.  The joy of dancing transforms his life, and the life of the people who know him.  DDD

[Rad]

Hi Marty,

Please review all that has been written about Shaw for what has been written directly correlates with the evolutionary and karmic dynamics of his Soul. What you have shared are all within the realm of archetypal possibilities in his chart.

God Bless, Rad

[Kristin]

Hi DDD,

You wrote
Regarding "Dance Like No One is Watching", it reminds me of one of my most favorite movies called "Billy Elliott".  In a patriarchal, northern-english mining town where boys are not supposed to dance, Billy Elliott joins a ballet class and learns to do just that.  He keeps it a secret.  The joy of dancing transforms his life, and the life of the people who know him.  DDD

This is also a favorite movie of mine, and in our session I referred to Shaw as Billy Elliot. He has that kind of talent and His spirit is so much the same.

Peace,
Kristin

[Rad]

Hi Heather,

Thanks for starting the EA work on the sisters chart, but you are jumping the gun a bit. Kristin and I will be setting the next steps on this tomorrow.

God Bless, Rad

[Bhaskara]

Hi Rad Kristin Everyone,

Ok thank you Rad,  my apologies that I was not clear and went ahead and shared my thoughts on her chart and thought we were starting our work on her chart today. I removed my work from the MB.

Thank you,
Heather

[marty]

thank you Rad for your response,

   I'm studying more closely the responses to Shaw's chart and the insight and depth that you all bring.

   I feel so much for his little self as he struggles to comprehend his souls' journey, and his deep need to be a creative individual, while he might not be supported by conventional belief patterns (Pluto retrograde in Sag. in the 5th). I get such a sense of fear from this chart, but also a great desire to grow as a soul.

   His Pluto ruler is in Virgo in the 2nd house, approaching last quarter square to his Pluto, creating a crisis in consciousness that I hope will support him in finding the humility that he needs, at his young age, to lean toward generosity and kindness in his relationship to himself and others. 

   Hopefully, also, his natural trine between Uranus and S.N. will allow him the ability to detach from familial, past life trauma and possible feelings of guilt surrounding loss of family members so that he can objectify, intensify and accelerate his pursuit toward his own 'ultimate sense of meaning' (Gemini ruling 12th house) - communicating and caring outside of his own inner dialogue to see that we all share the same fears.

   Mercury in the 10th rules that 12th house cusp. Hopefully he will discover and "feed" the wolf inside that wants to help the other! I hope he finds his way to express himself to Creator and "feeds" that part of himself. As JWG taught, the key to his healing may be the way of Mercury - having his parents repeat unconditional love into his right ear every night.

   Blessings of the season to all.

[Rad]

All,

Ok, we are now ready to understand the nature of the skipped steps in Shaw's sister: Choe. Her Pluto is also in the 5th House, just like Shaw's. We need to identify the root issues/ dynamics in her Soul like we have for Shaw. So we will start with that 5th House Pluto in Capricorn: identify the aspects to it that all contribute to he Soul structure. Then we need to examine her S.Node in Cancer in the 12th, that is then ruled by her Moon in Aquarius in the 7th that is conjunct Jupiter, Chiron, Neptune, and is conjunct her S.Node of Neptune, and also the asteroid Eros.

These are all trine her Mercury/ Venus in Libra yet those very planets are square the S.Node, and also her N.Node in Capricorn in her 6th House: her skipped steps. That N.Node is ruled by her Saturn in Virgo in her 2nd, that Saturn is then square her natal Pluto, yet also trine that N.Node. That Saturn is also opposed her natal Uranus in Pisces in her 8th, and that Uranus is the ruler of all those planets/ asteroids in Aquarius in her 7th.

A real KEY is understanding all of this is to examine her natal Pluto and it's inconjunct aspect to Mars in Leo in the 5th, and to see that that 5th House Pluto rules her S.Nodes of Mars, Mercury, and Venus in Scorpio in her 4th House. Within that 4th House of course is her natal Sun in Scorpio conjunct asteroid Ceres, ruled by that same 5th House Pluto, and square that Mars in Leo in the 12th. This key correlates to the incredible inner intensity within her Soul, her emotional and psychological needs, desires, to be the center of attention within her family structures, and the degree of intensity that correlates to competing with her family members, especially siblings, Venus in the 3rd squaring her Nodes, and how that competing has created and lead to the skipped steps with those family members, and the root cause of her own skipped steps beyond those family members. The underlying issue within this KEY is to see the tremendous degree of REPEATING dynamics over and over.

So allow yourself to see this evolutionary and karmic structure in her birth chart: the whole of it. Within that whole then allow yourself to understand and see all the individual and specific dynamics that have all added up to that whole equally her personal / soul skipped steps, and how that personal and soul skipped steps have manifested her her family structures. A key in this is to determine WHY her soul has created this need/ desire to be the center of attention, the need for almost constant acclaim.

Remember the value is in the effort. Keep it as simple as you need too. The value is in the effort. Only compare what you do in this EA work TO YOURSELF AND NO ONE ELSE. Kristin and I will work with all of you not matter what your current degree of understanding is. This is simply and opportunity to learn, to evolve your natural capacities. And as you do so you are not only helping your own soul, but all others that you wish to help as well.

If you have any questions please ask them of me or Kristin now.

God Bless, Rad

[Bhaskara]

Hi Rad Kristin Everyone,

I have a question about Pluto being in aspect to Mars. Rad you said Pluto is inconjunct Mars but I don't see that aspect in the chart shown and completely missed it but when I count the degrees it is tech 146 degrees appart so that is a Waxing Inconjunct/ Quincunx?

Which is an aspect than can enforce humility through crisis and one where the person will not see themselves clearly?

Thank You,
Heather

[Rad]

Hi Heather,

Pluto is the slower moving of the too. Thus, this is a wanning inconjunct/quincux. The underlying archetype within inconjuncts, waxing or wanning, is necessary ADJUSTMENT to the existing dynamics between the two planets. Crisis is typically the vehicle the soul creates for such evolutionary and karmic adjustments to be made in order for evolution to occur.

God Bless, Rad