Uranus, Aquarius, and the 11th House

[Rad]

Hi Kristin, Daniel, Karen, Skywalker, Linda, Emily, and anyone else who wished to participate

Ok, let's begin our EA journey with PTSD is a very simple way. We will start with a very simply. So let's start with putting Uranus conjunct Saturn in Taurus in the second house. If we focus on the archetypes of the Soul's inner relationship to itself, that which constitutes meaning for life itself, the value associated with this meaning, how the Soul relates to others from the core of it's inner relationship to itself, the Soul's relationship to it's own sexuality via it's ongoing evolutionary needs to grow, and what inherent resources it posses in order to affect it's own need to survive what types of traumas that could lead to PTSD could we deduce from this Saturn/ Uranus conjunction in Taurus ?

If you have any questions please ask now.

God Bless, Rad

[Linda]

Ok, let's begin our EA journey with PTSD is a very simple way. We will start with a very simply. So let's start with putting Uranus conjunct Saturn in Taurus in the second house. If we focus on the archetypes of the Soul's inner relationship to itself, that which constitutes meaning for life itself, the value associated with this meaning, how the Soul relates to others from the core of its inner relationship to itself, the Soul's relationship to its own sexuality via its ongoing evolutionary needs to grow, and what inherent resources it posses in order to affect its own need to survive what types of traumas that could lead to PTSD could we deduce from this Saturn/Uranus conjunction in Taurus?

Uranus conjunct Saturn in Taurus in the 2nd house


Planetary pairs, Saturn and Uranus:  Collectively, this pair establishes the social tone, structure, impulse, every 48 years.  The last conjunction took place in 1942 in Taurus. The context at that time was WW2 and life was on the line. The instinct for survival of the human species is the archetype of Taurus. The revolutionary impulse of Uranus redefining the current structure, Saturn. The maturity in the late 60's was a radical revolution in values, Taurus, personal and human values. The effort was made to radically redefine society itself. The Jews' attitude in the concentration camps was that it was an act of revenge to survive and became a slogan amongst the Jews in the camps.  The original conjunction is now in a balsamic state with itself and is getting ready to form another conjunction next year [1988]. This next one is most important because it is going to be taking place in the center of our galaxy between 26-28 degrees Sagittarius. Sequentially, there is an inconjunction between the cycle that is now completing and the new one starting next year. Think about that in terms of necessary adjustments. (JWG)


Whether balsamic or new phase conjunction, the Soul has recently completed (or is completing) an entire cycle of the planetary pair:  Saturn and Uranus.  For many lifetimes the Soul has been building and establishing structures (such as choice of groups, country, race, financial disposition, etc.) and then suddenly changing, tearing them down, and starting anew.  Saturn works hard to establish structures that will bring stability, accomplishment, and a sense of security based on self-consistency.  Saturn shares an affinity with the 2nd house whilst Uranus can free up Saturnian suppressive social conditioning patterns. Saturn and Uranus are opposite in their actions:  they challenge each other.  Saturn seeks stability, security, and control due to self-consistency whilst Uranus seeks to shatter all things Saturnian for the purpose of de-conditioning from the structures of the past.  Saturn is the old;  Uranus ushers in something new and revolutionary, based on expansion into outer planetary energies, moving away from a purely materialistic Earth-based reality, and transcending the boundaries of what has been possible in past lives.  Uranus challenges past stagnation by overcoming security issues.  With these archetypes fused together or conjunct, the Soul can work hard for survival purposes but can also mean sudden changes and shifts in direction. 

The Soul may have a deep-seated fear of poverty.  It could have over-compensated for past life excesses swinging from materialism to poverty.  There could have been past life extremes of over-indulgences of the senses resulting in eating disorders.  The Soul becomes stronger as it overcomes notions of what it needs for its survival and security, having "survived" all manner of past life disasters.  The Soul values physical survival, economic security, sensual pleasures, food, comfort, stability, intellectual freedom, also diversity in its choices, and in its own individuality and uniqueness.  The Soul's value systems are formed by withdrawing into itself. 

Taurus on the 2nd house cusp forms an inconjunct to Libra on the 7th.  Both house cusps are ruled by Venus.  Taurus/2nd is the inner relationship to oneself whilst Libra/7th is the relationships to others.  If the Soul's relationship to itself is based on Saturn and Uranus, then Libra/7th reflects the relationships it will attract and initiate with others, example: a mix of stable and rebellious types, others with whom one can collaborate, work, and establish something solid, and others with whom one can express the more liberating aspects of self.  The Soul's Venusian values will determine with whom it will and will not form relationships.  Venus with Saturn correlates to coldness and unloveability, but also the ability to make a commitment.  Venus with Uranus brings interesting and different people into the life, ones who are not afraid to challenge the status quo.  Venus correlates with extremes.  If the Soul projects its needs too heavily upon others, then it will generate crisis and trauma in order to be thrown back upon itself. 

The way Souls continue their survival in the Earth plane is through procreation.  Therefore, the Soul will have a strong sexual nature along with sexual values.  Whilst the 2nd house inclination is to cut oneself off from others and be sexually self-sufficient, the Uranian urge is to share oneself with others in groups of like-mind.  The Soul can be sexually or emotionally manipulative to get what it wants to ensure survival, the survival instinct being extra strong.  There can be extremes of personal isolation in contrast with excessive social or sexual activity. 

The inherent resources of the Soul for its own survival are:  creative ability, social vision, ability to apply and establish its ideas, organizational talents, ability to be alone, self-reliance, inner emotional security and strength, strong survival instinct, uniqueness, perseverance, revolutionary, unique, objective awareness, withdrawal in order to clear prevailing consensus opinions.

For further information, one can look at the whole archetype of Saturn, Capricorn, and the 10th house.  Same for Uranus, Aquarius and the 11th house.  The opposite house - the 8th - brings confrontations with others to break free from limitations.  Negative feedback from intimate/powerful others enforce lessons of shared effort, and shared resources.

Throughout many lifetimes the Soul was tested to its very limits in survival mode.  Traumas of death, starvation, and not being able to survive or sustain itself or its group is held in the long-term memory.  Examples of the types of traumas that could lead to PTSD:  excessive or distorted over-attachment to monetary system of valuation, manipulation and lies in order to survive, sudden highs and lows, sudden gains and losses, over-indulgence, starvation, eating disorders, mental trauma, physical/emotional trauma, problematic past life regimes/social orders, famines, wars, political disasters, racial trauma, group trauma (family, friends, tribe, race) - all held in the long-term memory.


Thanks,

Linda

 

[Kristin]

Hi Rad and Group,
Here are some examples of how this signature would manifest.
Peace,
Kristin

URANUS CONJUNCT VENUS in TAURUS

The Body Doesn't Lie!

There may be a limit to what the mercurial mind can access, but all of our long term memories, symbolized by Uranus, are held in the cells of our body. This is why a Soul can have an apparent trauma- free life, yet if they are carrying traumas forward, as suggested in this signature, those traumas can be free floating within the feeling body and easily re-activated with intense surges of body memory, even if the triggers, from an outsiders perspective, come in relatively small degrees. The body and the Soul will experience the same physical and emotional response as it if were happening again in real time. When unresolved traumas are triggered, it can send the body into a tail spin whereby the PTSD is unleashed and the fears of a similar reality sky rocket. The Soul will feel to be right back in the life where the trauma occurred and the fears can be extremely irrational yet the Soul feels to have zero control of their hold. Often times the Soul will expect, Venus, the worst possible scenario.

Uranus conjunct Venus in Taurus in the second symbolizes a Soul's front line survival being totally shaken and stripped due to events of a sudden or extreme nature. This signature can also reflect events in the current life that will force the Soul to be thrown back upon themselves for their own survival, in some cases they may also experience sudden death or at the very least would have have perished suddenly and watch others they love perish as well in other lives.

I discovered this tragic story in the news today -

Arkansas couple died trying to shield daughter from Twister

"Melissa and Michael Mooneyhan met as high school students and quickly fell in love. The two were married in 2004, even before they graduated. More than a decade later, the pair died shielding their young daughter from a tornado as the twister chewed up the family's mobile home in Nashville, Arkansas. The home looked "like it had exploded, said Howard County Coroner John Gray, who called the little girl's survival "a miracle." Rescuers who found the family believe the couple perished while desperately trying to protect their child. When search crews lifted a piece of trailer debris, they found the girl squatting between her parents' bodies, awake and teary.

"I don't think she had nearly a scratch on her," said Howard County Emergency Management Coordinator Sonny Raulerson. "There wasn't enough room for her to even stand up. But she didn't try to crawl out. I don't think she wanted to leave her mama."

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This child suddenly, tragically, has lost everything, not only her parents, but her home, and every literal possession except the clothes on her back. She is on her own, forced to start from scratch and go at it alone, learning shocking lessons in self reliance and survival. As a result of events of this nature, she will undoubtedly carry tremendous fears of losing someone she loves in the future, or fears of never seeing those she loves again.

A Soul carrying this signature may have lost everything that represented any form of security in another life and the PTSD of such events carried into this life. They would enter this life with a fear of losing it all and not having enough food or resources to survive. It may have been that this Soul was part of a tribe and a more dominating force suddenly came storming in without notice in the night, rummaging through their food and supplies, destroying their homes and raping their land, killing their loved ones, and stripping them of all that represented safety and security. It may be cases where the Soul themselves survived such an atrocity and was essentially left 'holding the bag'.

It could include any situation where survival was on the line, as in an earthquake or an avalanche etc, similar to the devastating events in Nepal. All is lost, an entire history of memories held in the walls and in the earth, vanishing in a flash or a blink. This Soul may have also lived through such an extreme event and 'watched' it all happen, witnessing those they love being tragically taken, the Soul may have survived this scene or survived just long enough for the pictures of devastation and horror to be permanently tattooed to their Soul.

Because the shock can be total, it would create an emotional freeze and an interrupted current in the nervous system. Events of this nature are impossible to process initially and can take lifetimes to work through as it will be necessary at some point to recover the shattered emotional pieces again, for it is the only way forward.


Caught in the Act!


Taurus, Venus and the second house, is also linked with sexuality and the Soul's inner relationship to itself.

With Uranus conjunct Venus in Taurus in the 2nd house, this symbolizes a Soul who may have been sexually 'caught in the act' and traumatized for it in some way. This could represent a child getting caught touching themselves, a natural exploratory need, yet shocked by the consequences of self touch and self discovery. This would prevent a real sense of feeling grounded if the soul was unable to tend to their essential needs in this way. It can ultimately lead to feeling inwardly fractured and disconnected within themselves, for any time they had a desire/need to tend to this inner urge, they would short circuit and in a sense, separate from themselves, creating a a palpable displacement.

This signature could also equal Soul who was sexually traumatized by another, where boundaries were crossed and an interruption in the natural evolving sexual maturation process occurred, for example a priest molesting the alter boy.

There may have been trauma linked with the Soul's sexual nature. Considering Uranus is linked with being open or drawn to more unusual sexual preferences, this may be a Soul who has experienced trauma as a result of their chosen sexuality or sexual preferences, an example could be a gay man in the military getting caught with another man mid stream. You can imagine the fall out and the aftermath of such an occurrence. An extreme Uranian example of this would be the man on the receiving end of this exchange, considered to be the weaker of the two, being tortured to death while his male lover is forced to watch. A Soul in this context would do everything in his power to disconnect from his sexual nature so as not to potentially re-create the trauma again.

In essence, this would be a Soul who was traumatized in some way for their sexual nature, for there are countless counts and variations of this story, and the PTSD that would be in place, overriding any natural instinct to follow the inner physical call. This would lead to a Soul who's inner relationship to themselves would be fragmented at best, one that is linked with simple survival, similar to the frog in the well, only focusing on their piece of the sky, for fear if they look beyond those limits, they would lose their life, or worse yet, survive the traumatic loss of those they love - only to be left broken and alone, emotionally dust in the wind.

[Skywalker]

Hi Rad and Group,

Thank you for this opportunity to keep on learning EA in depth.

Uranus in the Second House in Taurus relative to potential past traumatic experiences can correlate with a Soul who has experienced trauma relative to the very things which sustained it thru life. Relative to past lives it can correlate with memories of sudden losses of that which was necessary for basic survival, such as food, clothing, other people to help them, resources, money and all types of material assets that are fundamental for basic survival.

On a personal level the Soul is learning to relate to itself in new ways with Uranus in the Second House in Taurus. Because of the desire to relate to itself in new ways, this means that the Soul is also liberating from past ways of relating to itself and associated values, thus may have subconscious memories of various types of trauma which leads to the objectivity needed in order to liberate from past ways of relating to itself. Because the nature of the Second House and Taurus is to focus whole heartedly on that which is essential for survival, this can lead to a limited attitude towards various aspects of life as the Soul attempted to identify and experience only the very things that it found essential for its life. Consequently that which is identified as essential for life also becomes highly valued and focused upon as something to maintain. The same can go for anything that is essential for survival such as a person, a forest or a lake, some material possession such as a weapon for hunting or a tool to build with, an inner resource such as one´s voice for singing or anything really necessary.  The basic value system itself will also be directly connected to whatever has been identified as necessary for life to thrive. As an example, in our day and age money is what is valued most by the majority of people as it´s what allows them to go to a shop and buy what they need in order to live but, in a tribe in the Amazon, it might be the jungle and nature as that is what sustains the natives and all the other life forms in their environment.

Saturn and Uranus correlate with how we structure our world relative to our core sense of individuality. When the two are conjunct, let´s say in a new phase relationship to one another, we have an initiation of a new cycle relative to how the Soul is attempting to integrate its individuality within a social reality and context. It indicates that this cycle has just begun in the recent past that led up to the present moment and it is also a very strong indication of potential trauma of various kinds. The conjunction between Saturn and Uranus is a stressful aspect in any chart as the energy of both planets are antagonistic. One contracts and controls, Saturn, and the other simply doesn´t want to be contained, Uranus. In a new phase aspect there is also an Aries element to the combination which simply augments the pressure, tension and potential for destructive tendencies and/or trauma.

This aspect in itself is an indication of tension as the Soul needs freedom in order to experience its individuality in its own way thru the value system and can lead to a rebellious nature that does not bend to any authority unless in agreement with the way things are structured.

In the Second house, this conjunction can obviously correlate with a Soul that is rebelling agains traditional values of various types, such as the value people give to material possessions. The evolutionary level of awareness the individual Soul has evolved into will be crucial in order to understand that which the Soul is potentially rebelling against.

In all evolutionary levels the Soul will be attempting to find its place within the social structures it finds itself in, including the family structure. The individual will potentially feel alienated as he or she can attempt to implement various values which reflect the individual values and will have an impact on the way he or she relates to him or herself and thus to others. The Soul is attempting to find out what it values for itself on its own terms and this can create a vibration of rebellion that some others may feel threatened by as the individual rebels against traditional values that may seem to be crystalized to him or her. If threatened deeply enough and depending on other factors, others can attack and attempt to limit, control, ridicule or ostracize the Saturn/Uranus individual due to a sense of insecurity stemming from a desire to maintain the status quo at all costs. This can lead to various traumas including physical violence from others who feel threatened and attempt to suppress the individual´s influence in various ways.

Because the Soul desires to develop its own value system based on its own inherent true individuality, the individual can also relate to itself in ways which are different from others in general who do not reflect the individuals true nature. The individual can end up by isolating him or herself from others who do not identify with the same values. The Soul is rejecting and rebelling from crystalized ways of relating to itself and this can lead to an individual who has a hard time finding others with who to identify with and who has a similar or compatible value system. The individual may thus be forced upon itself for inner sustenance on various levels including on a sexual level, in which the individual may express his or her sexuality primarily thru masturbation, as he or she may prefer to be self sufficient and isolated than to relate to others in ways that he or she doesn´t really identify with, and thus rebels against them instead of being open and receptive.

If the sexual impulse is extremely strong which may very well be the case with a strong Second House, the individual may receive criticism for his or her sexuality which may be different and even seen as excessive by others. The individual may be experimental and have experiences that led to trauma in various ways such as going to the limits of one´s physical ability, engaging in S&M practices, in the use of sexual toys or even bizarre sexual practices with others that may of led to traumatic experiences if taken too far or if judged negatively by others. Another possibility is being criticized/judged for the individual´s natural sexual needs and criticized as a child or teenager for touching itself "inappropriately"  and thus feeling shame and a fear of judgement for that which is a natural need. Sexual rejection by others can lead to psychological and emotional trauma. The self esteem and personal value of the individual can be shattered because these and other experiences that cyclically force the individual back upon him or herself, and the subconscious memories because of these traumas will condition the individual in all he or she experiences, until there is an objectification of the dynamics that led to trauma in order to be healed. Once objectified, the Soul can begin to heal and liberate from the subconscious and conscious effects of the traumas.

Remembering that Uranus is also connected to subconscious memories, the Soul may have within its long term memory banks memories of loss of life and an inability for various reasons to sustain itself or others or to maintain a certain quality of life which may of led to trauma. The individual may not remember the traumatic experiences but we are all conditioned by our emotional past and naturally gravitate back to that which is known and secure to us. Saturn conjunct Uranus is in itself the interfacing between the old crystalized and known reality, Saturn, and the need for a new way of being that is free from that which is known, Uranus. This can create inner tension as the Soul on the one hand desires the new and unknown and on the other hand desires to maintain a sense of security by holding on to that which is known. This duality of desires can create a reality that seems secure to the individual yet at the same time becomes a sense of limitation and stagnation as the individual can feel stuck by circumstances or people that it chose to maintain. Trauma can occur when sudden unexpeced behaviours from other people, who may leave the individual because of his or her own inner conscious or not, desires to break free from them. Because these desires are generally not totally conscious, the result can be traumatic as the individual is shocked by these experiences and is forced upon him or herself once again. This can lead the individual to further alienation and isolation as he or she intensifies the desire to be fully self sufficient on all levels.

Another area of potential trauma can be relative to money and possessions and how the individual earns his or her resources. There can be an inability to earn a living according to one´s true values and this can lead to a heavy reality the person tries to break free from but is highly frustrated as he or she cannot find another means of income as the need to survive and put food on the table speaks louder than living according to one´s true values. If sustained this can create a hatred of the system and of others who adopt the values the individual feels so opressed by. This hatred can lead to various confrontations with others based on a conflict of interests due to different, incompatible value systems. An example may be a factory worker that simpy does his job to get by and hates people who have more money than he or she does and therefore hates capitalism and can feel tiny, frustrated and the weight of the inequality in the world because of the capitalist social structure.

Another potential for trauma can come from a sense of rejection from others because of the tastes one develops and personal preferences, including sexual preferences. This can be a signature that potentially reflects homosexuality or an experimental sexual nature as the Soul needs to experiment in order to know what is a true reflection of its core indiviiduality beyond what others, family or society may expect. Remembering the natural tendency of the Second House to be closed minded and intentionally limited in order to focus on that which is essential for survival, the Soul may focus wholeheartedly on that which it identifies with and simply discards people or symbols that represent that which it does not identify with. Saturn being the planet that correlates with judgement can also correlate with a huge amount of inner and outer judgement as the Soul focuses on that which it values and there can also be past life memories of being judged by others for having different values and tastes or even for having sexual preferences that were unconventional for the epoch. These judgements for being unique or for liking different things than what is "normal" may of led to traumatic experiences such as being beaten by a father for being homosexual, that stay in the memory banks of the Soul on a subconscious level. These memories can correlate with PTSD which manifest as fears of opening up to others.

Possibly certain aspects of the physical body can be a source of potential trauma if the Soul doesn´t identify with its body or even its current gender. If a person is very fat or hates his or her own voice or being male or female or some other physical attribute, it can lead to attracting others who will criticize him or her and possibly make fun of them or reject them in various ways. Think of children in school who can be scared of being with others because of these fears of ridicule and rejection for various physical attributes, which in itself can be traumatic to the child and have negative effects on the self image and self esteem.

The greatest traumas are probably related to the loss of life itself or to that which sustained life and to the loss of that which was most valued in varying degrees.

In summary these dynamics and others may lead to the Soul being born with PTSD, which can manifest as an ever greater tendency to isolate itself and be totally self sustainable in various ways in order to prevent further painful experiences. The self esteem and relationship to itself can be highly damaged as a result and personal relationships can also be a source of re-experiencing traumas until there is a healing release thru objectification and understanding of the dynamics that led to trauma.


All the best

[Rad]

Hi Linda, Kristin, and Skywalker,

Thank all three of your for taking the time to work on this. Your work is carefully thought out and well reasoned from an EA point of view that I hope can help others understand PTSD from the example that we used. I am posting the chart of Barbara Striesand who has a Saturn/Uranus conjunction in Taurus in her 2nd House. One of the core events in her singing career that created PTSD for her correlates to a time in which she was on stage signing on of her own songs and completely forgot the words .. she simply froze: Uranus. This event triggered an ongoing inner struggle within herself for many, many years afterwords in which she sought out psychological therapy to help her heal the stage freight and sheer panic that would happen to her after this event. She said this therapy never really helped her at all.  

If any of you want to look at her chart so as to deduce and understand the causes of this event please feel free to do so.

God Bless, Rad

[Skywalker]

Hi Rad,

What evolutionary level is Barbara Streisand?

Thank you

All the best

[Rad]

Hi Skywalker,

3rd Stage consensus: right before 1st Stage individuated.

God Bless, Rad

[Sunyata]

Has it been discussed somewhere the effects of Uranus as it transits through the houses, crosses into a new house etc?

Sunyata

[Rad]

No, not yet.

[Kristin]

Hi Rad and Group,

Here are some thoughts on Streisand's Uranus/Saturn in Taurus Signature.

Barbara is not new to fame within the world of music. With a South Node in Pisces conjunct Venus as well as the SN of Venus in Pisces, this being the ruler of the Uranus/Saturn conjunction in Taurus in the 2nd, she has come through many lives as an icon in music and a popular figure, through the vehicle of her voice. Also, Pluto in the 5th house in Leo, ruler Sun in Taurus in the 1st, re-states the power of her place on the stage and viewed as being special in her field and a true stand-out.

The theme of being born into royalty is also seen within these symbols as she chose this path in order to secure her status and opportunity for the spotlight. She may have become competitive and within this, jealous, of anyone who challenged her stage, Pluto in Leo squares its ruler, the Sun, in the first house, so she may have manipulated others in her life in ways to secure her connection to those in power, to the people who could give her what she needed. Within this position of status, power and fame comes a feeling of entitlement and a sense of exclusivity, and the expectation of needing to be treated better than anyone else, in essence, deserving the royal treatment. She may have even used her power to remove others in her midst from using their voice, if she felt they might threaten her position. So she may have been responsible for destroying other people's dreams, for fear they would step on her toes and on her starlight. She does have Original Lilith in Saturn in the 10th, the need to be in control and recognized as the top dog authority, in this case, in the world of music, as the ruler is Saturn in Taurus in the 2nd with Uranus. She needs to be in full control in her life, so to experience a total loss of control, as in this case of forgetting her own lyrics on stage, would have created total trauma and shock leading to the feeling of never being able to safely or freely do what she loved, without the fear of this happening again.

Her Soul created the event of forgetting the words to her own music while on stage, in attempt to repent for becoming too full of her self in other times and for coming to believe that she was the Source of this gift, called her voice. Her Soul set up this scene of absolute humiliation as a necessary shock to wake her up and attempt to expand her awareness with Venus, ruler of the Uranus/Saturn conjunction in Taurus, in Pisces conjunct the SN of Venus and opposing its ruler Neptune in Virgo in the 6th house. So her own voice was taken from her in humiliating ways, she publicly and vulnerably removed herself from the throne.

The reason the therapy never worked was because she believed that she did not deserve the limelight, she did not deserve to shine. The Virgo/Pisces S/M axis is strongly expressed where the sadist thinks they are superior, and even feeling as if she was the chosen one, seen in the lens of the Jewish race, yet the chosen ones must suffer. The masochist believes at the same time not deserving and inferior. This is the paradox seen with Uranus. Uranus is in Taurus in the 2nd, the ruler Venus in Pisces in the 12th opposing Neptune in Virgo in the 6th. The therapy will also not work until her Soul starts singing for God, instead of singing for herself. The more adjustments she makes, North Node in Virgo in the 6th, the more clarity will be gained, and she can return freely to her creative ways and be the vehicle for God that she was designed to be for others.

Peace,
Kristin

[Skywalker]

Hi Rad and group,

Here is my go

Barbara Streisand

With Pluto, Chiron and the Moon all in Leo in the Fourth and Fifth Houses and the South Node of the Moon in the Twelfth House and it´s ruler Neptune in Virgo in the Sixth, She is learning about internal emotional security and may be highly wounded relative to her self image and ability to express herself. She is also extremely sensitive and vulnerable with these symbols, specially relative to her own self worth as she has the Sun and Mercury in Taurus, on top of the Saturn Uranus conjunciton, which is all ruled by Venus in Pisces in the Twelfth House. There is a natural innocence to her that also equals a huge amount of vulnerability with these symbols and as she learns to "come out of her shell" in order to express herself as is desired and shown by the stellium with Pluto in Leo and planets in the Fifth House. She also had to learn to be in the spotlight. This spotlight may of triggered memories of a loss of life due to judgement and persecution as can be seen by the South Node and Venus in conjunction in the twelfth House and Neptune in the Sixth House and also the South Nodes of Jupiter, Saturn and Pluto in the Tenth House. With Pluto in the Fourth House and the South Node in the Twelfth House there can be a hiding signature because of the high degree of sensitivity and a natural fear of being seen or discovered because of past life persecutions. With Saturn/Uranus in the Second House it´s possible she was robbed of her resources or gifts in various ways even to the point of losing her life and in this life with the Sun in the First House in Taurus square Pluto she is learning to stand up and fight for herself by confronting her very own insecurities and by developing inner strength and courage.

Relative to her incident in which she was unable to remember the lyrics to her song, it seems that at the time she was also going thru a very expansive period which would be catapulting her career and this may of uncovered hidden vulnerabilities and sensitivites within her and thus uncovered subconscious fears of being exposed.

To me these fears stem from a fear of judgement and ridicule and of being powerless at the hands of others, which may of been something she experienced in her recent past. The evolutionary intention seems to be for her to uncover deep vulnerabilities within her emotional make up that were effecting her on a subconscious level and thus limiting her expression, and also to humble her.

I Googled her incident with stage fright, which is well documented and it was in 1967 on the 17th of June when she was going to sing for 135.000 people in New York. Interestingly, Mercury was smack on the North Node of Pluto in the Fourth House. This brought awareness of her deep insecurities and that the way forward is to be able to FEEL safe from within.

With the Sun and Mercury square Pluto, Chiron and the Moon in the Fifth House there can also be a huge inner sense of inadequacy and a difficulty in expressing herself because of a potentially negative self image or a difficulty in relating to herself for various reasons. One reason may be a recent gender switch and therefore a difficulty in relating to herself in her new gender and another may be feeling tiny and inadequate as she was born into a very poor family when she may have a very strong sense of special destiny. It´s possible she was in positions of high power and nobility in her Soul history and suddenly was in a very vulnerable situation in which she was tested about the true value of her inner resources in this life time. From looking at her I am reminded of Egypt and the pharaos.

At that time when she experienced her traumatic incident, Saturn in transit was forming an inconjunct to her North Node in Virgo in the Sixth House. She was also humbling herself, her ego, thru the emotional insecurity that she experienced, which created a sense of crisis and led to her having to further develop her inner strength and personal value.  

At that event she had the transiting Sun approaching a square to Neptune in the Sixth House and is the ruler of her South Node in the Twelfth House, adding to the humbling effect by making her feel utterly emotionally vulnerable and lost, with nothing to hold on to.

Thank you

All the best

[Rad]

Hi Skywalker and Kristin,

Thanks for taking the time to work on this. The core understanding as to the 'why' her Soul needed to create this event is reflected in Kristin's analysis.

God Bless, Rad

[Sabrina]

Ok, let's begin our EA journey with PTSD is a very simple way. We will start with a very simply. So let's start with putting Uranus conjunct Saturn in Taurus in the second house. If we focus on the archetypes of the Soul's inner relationship to itself, that which constitutes meaning for life itself, the value associated with this meaning, how the Soul relates to others from the core of it's inner relationship to itself, the Soul's relationship to it's own sexuality via it's ongoing evolutionary needs to grow, and what inherent resources it posses in order to affect it's own need to survive what types of traumas that could lead to PTSD could we deduce from this Saturn/ Uranus conjunction in Taurus ?

Going to jump in here -

the underlying theme of Saturn/Uranus in Taurus in the 2nd house does not immediately come to me. The first thing I think of is a particular manifestation but maybe that is the question? What types of trauma?

The trauma that I was thinking of is a Soul coming into a body that does not exemplify consensus standards of beauty or normal functioning, and the kind of alienation that this could create. There is a limitation of belonging, such that the Soul does not belong in a group in a physical sense. Moreso with physical impairments, some kind of handicap, the Soul may then be of a taboo kind of sexuality as far as the culture is concerned, or simply the pool of people that this person could be involved with intimately is much smaller. Maybe the Soul feels a distortion between their identity and how they see the truth of themselves (inherent individuality of Uranus) versus their actual physical body or physical limitations (Saturn).

Another possible trauma could be someone who has experienced the necessity of growing up suddenly, given a large amount of responsibility before the time they were projected to or developmentally ready to. But due to survival or trauma within the structure of the family, they become more of an adult figure to themselves while still a child. Then later in life, there is a blockage or struggle within the identity, where situations that call for someone stepping up to a level of responsibility is triggering for the person. They could be the type to take on more responsibility than asked for of them, someone who has difficulty understanding what is their responsibility to take on themselves. Or it could be at a different extreme where the person does not wish to share responsibility with anyone, isolation through self-reliance. The blocks or challenges that they face have something to do with viewing their reality through the filter of the past, and the necessity to develop and cultivate a relationship to the present reality they find themselves in. The conditioning of Saturn here may be self-imposed more than culturally, or from the mirrors of several close people around them in formative years. It's a conditioning of the self-values which are based from a moment of trauma, and so trust in anything outside of oneself may be difficult for the Soul.

-Sabrina

[Rad]

Sabrina,

You have rightly identified some of the possible traumas that could occur with these symbols, the reasoning you employed in these possibilities being quite accurate.

God Bless, Rad 

[Rad]

What your brain looks like after a near-death experience

June 29, 2015
Newsweek

On August 24, 2001, Air Transat Flight 236, with 306 passengers and crew members aboard, began its scheduled flight from Toronto to Lisbon, Portugal, but didn't quite make it. Midway over the Atlantic Ocean, there was a fuel leak, then a power outage, and Captain Robert Piché and First Officer Dirk de Jager decided to make an emergency landing. The lights went off, the engines failed, cabin depressurization began, and passengers were given instructions for the deployment of life jackets and oxygen masks.

But just after announcing the plane was about to go into the water, Piché spotted a runway in the Azores, the volcanic islands about 900 miles off the coast of Portugal. To lose altitude, he conducted one 360-degree turn and additional S-turns. Passengers screamed as the plane swung around, then back and forth, but outside their windows they saw water turn to land. Warning his passengers to brace themselves, Piché then aimed for the landing strip, and the plane hit it twice before the crew could apply maximum braking pressure and bring the 200-ton aircraft to a stop. Miraculously, nobody died.

In the years since, the survivors of that near-death experience have become a sort of lab experiment for researchers trying to understand the long-term consequences of post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). The person who proposed studying these survivors was Dr. Margaret McKinnon, an associate professor of psychiatry and neuroscience at McMaster University in Ontario, Canada, and one of the passengers on Flight 236. She developed PTSD after that harrowing landing.

"The study was an opportunity to turn something negative into a positive experience and hopefully make a contribution to the science of PTSD," she says.

In an initial experiment conducted three years after the traumatic incident, 15 passenger-participants-seven with PTSD-completed a memory test to probe the quality of their memories of the flight. "Everyone on board had a different experience," says McKinnon. Uncomfortable discussing the details of her trauma from that day, she just says, "I thought I would die and came to some form of acceptance around that."

For the study, participants also were asked to recall two other events: their memories of the events of 9/11 and a neutral autobiographical event. These two other memories would serve as comparison points and help the researchers understand how trauma affects memory.

"There were two main findings from that study," says Brian Levine a professor of psychology at the University of Toronto and one of the researchers on the project. First, all the passengers remembered a remarkably large amount of detail from the Air Transat incident. Levine refers to this as emotionally enhanced memory. "Everyone on the plane generated two to three times more information about that event than other events we tested," he says.

The second finding was that the people with PTSD tended to veer off-topic when interviewed about the near-crash, recalling additional but somewhat irrelevant information, compared with the people without PTSD. This suggests they have problems with their control over memory, says Levine. Interestingly, those with PTSD not only remembered more external, tangential details from the traumatic plane landing; their recollections of 9/11 and the neutral event were also cluttered with superfluous details.

Nearly a decade following this initial stage of research, eight passengers agreed to return for a second chapter of the study. This group, which had a brain scan, ranged in age from 30s to 60s and included some who had been diagnosed with PTSD. Placed inside a functional MRI scanner, the eight passengers recalled details of their experience on Flight 236 while they watched the Discovery Channel's video re-creation of the incident, which included looking down on the island where the emergency landing took place.

"I can tell you, I re-experienced the event, it was that evocative of the experience," says McKinnon, who participated in the study. "I felt I was suspended in the air again."

She adds, "They say in trauma the body keeps the score," and the study's results provide a neurological explanation why: As the participants recalled their near-plane crash experience, emotional memory regions of their brains lit up-the amygdala, hippocampus and midline frontal and posterior regions.

"Memory is an activation of a number of brain regions at once," says Daniela Palombo, lead author of the study and a postdoctoral researcher at the Boston University School of Medicine. "The amygdala is classically involved in emotion, while the hippocampus is important to memory. The posterior regions play a role in visual imagery, and the prefrontal cortex comes onboard for self-referential processes."

Following their latest Flight 236 re-creations, the passengers were asked to recall their experience of 9/11 while watching footage of the terrorist attacks, and, finally, they recalled a neutral autobiographical event. The participants' brain activity when discussing 9/11 was similar to what had occurred during their memories of the near-plane crash. And, as expected, the pattern did not occur when they recalled a neutral event. What was surprising, though, is that these patterns were not evident in people who hadn't been involved in a near-plane crash, even when they recalled 9/11 while undergoing a brain scan.

"People who have observed trauma might see the world differently," says Palombo. She believes the emergency landing scare may have changed the way the brains of those passengers process new information. Following trauma, we may be more sensitive to painful life experiences, Palombo suggests, and so we view the world through new lenses. "The research supports the idea of a lasting memory trace, a carryover effect," she says.

Those passengers would be more affected by 9/11 because, Palombo says, it "hits home-certainly we can imagine they would relate to 9/11 differently than other people." And PTSD research supports the idea that any element resembling the traumatic event will be perceived by a trauma survivor as threatening, even when it occurs in a safe environment.

The two studies also suggest that how you see the world to begin with may make you more or less predisposed to PTSD, should you undergo a traumatic experience. "Everybody's memory works differently," explains Levine. Some people remember events in a precise way, with relevant details lining up in an orderly fashion, while other people seem to take in more superfluous details in a more disorganized way.

"For people who have that second kind of memory, more extraneous information getting in, they may be more susceptible to PTSD when traumatized," Levine speculates. "It's the interplay between the cognitive systems and the emotional systems that may determine how you cope." In those who develop PTSD, "the emotional part may overwhelm the system," he says.

These findings add fuel to the theory that when it comes to PTSD, it's not so much that a traumatic memory exists but that it can be later triggered in unpredictable ways and unexpected times. McKinnon's hope is that an enriched knowledge of brain activity following a traumatic experience could help advance current therapies built around processing these uncontrolled memories.